EXCLUSIVE! NEW MUSIC: @BSLADE - "Six Years Old" [NSFW]

B.Slade //Image Courtesy Civic Taylor & Suxxess Records. USED BY PERMISSION.

From the forthcoming  LP, "My September Issue", available 8.19.2013
Produced by JoBlaq
Written By Anthony C.Williams II

"After being told by someone that I acted like a six year old by someone I love and trusted, I 
wrote them a letter explaining why these traits probably still exist but I still never TRULY went 
into depth about the shit I really went through in the year of being a six year old. I told them 
that I was a metaphorical six year old trying to survive in a society that I was not given the 
proper tools to cope with. Being raised as a fundamental evangelical pentecostal, I was 
reared in a bubble and as a result in my adulthood suffered from severe arrested 
development and PTSD. As I begin this therapeutic journey to self realization and 
confrontation, I reveal once again more truth that many people may not be aware of. Before 
you judge me try HARD to love me. And if not, fuck off. No really, just kiss my black ass."


my feet couldn't reach the pedals
so my father got on his knees
and used his hands to press the pedals
at the bottom of the hammond B3
6 years old and I lied about the kool aid
I told my mama that my dad said it was ok to drink
when my father found out he beat me with a belt of leather
until my thighs split open and it caused my calves to bleed
so as a grown ass man
I act like a 6 year old
I act like a little ass boy
and I'm protective of all my toys
cuz they're the only things that never judge me
that's why I act like a 6 year old
full of imagination and wonder
but still afraid of the "Distant Thunder"
6 years old and I'm staring at a movie screen
in a dark sanctuary shaking watching "image of the beast"
repeated nightmares can't sleep even at 33
thanks alot dad now I'm stuck with fucking PTSD
Now my relationships suffer & i can't live a normal life
but your philosphies daddy said it's alright to scare 'em 2 Christ
So when I'm selfish or I'm needy 
or I act like a scaredy cat
just try to function normally
without a grandparent mom or dad
I always felt like my brothers hated me 
even though I try to do my best
since I'm a bitch ass faggot
I'm the one they wish they never had
so I'm a six year old
I act like a little ass boy
and I'm very protective of my toys
cuz they're the only things that never judge me
I'm a 6 year old
full of imagination and wonder
but still afraid of the "Distant Thunder
I'm a six year old
I'm a little boy 
they never judge me
I'm a six year old
I'm a little ass boy
I'm very protective of my toys
cuz they're the only things that never judge meI'm a 6 year old
full of imagination and wonder
but still afraid of the "Distant Thunder"



#TEAMSUXXESS

Comments

Anonymous said…
I LOVE YOU. FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. ALWAYS
Jayce Copeland said…
Will always love every part of you man. Always, J. Stephen
Anonymous said…
Keep your head towards those toys that you protect and your mind full of imagination and wonder to the possibilities and potentials that still exist for us all...and smile